Lies

Lies.... that is all that I seem to hear in my head. I am not good enough, I will never be loved, I am a bad child, I am irresponsible, I am not beautiful, nobody cares, nobody will ever fight for me, I am in this alone, I suck.

I know that these things are not truth. I find that I have to remind myself of the truth multiple times through out the day. I am precious, priceless, I have been chosen by the King, I have an irreplaceable role here on plant earth, something that only my obedience to God can accomplish, I don't suck. There are plenty of people who remind me of these truths, daily. I am blessed to have such an amazing group of loving people around me. Yet I feel alone. I may as well be walking through an empty high school hallway, only the echo of my own footsteps. You know, when you keep looking over your shoulder to make sure that there really isn’t somebody behind you. This leaves me questioning, what am I missing? Something has to be off, is it normal to feel this way? I know that He has answers; I know that I have never strayed so far away from Him, that I can not come back. I know that feelings, emotions are not necessarily true, but it does not change their presence, the fact that they are there and I feel them.

So goes the journey of my life, onward and forward. I know that I am walking with God, despite it all. These things just seem to be more in face, these last few days, maybe it is because I am busy, and things feel out of control. I don’t like it when things are out of control, so I am working on getting things in order.

But I know the truth; the truth is always setting me free.

I AM BEAUTIFUL AND LOVED, I HAVE AN IRREPLACABLE ROLE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN CHOSEN BY THE KING!!!